Weeping from joy!

I really had no plans to write but I wanted to. Ever weeped from pure joy?
I read some muslim revert stories and they state weeping from pure joy. I believe them. Someone who all of a sudden realizes they have found their way. Wow what a revelation! I am 19 yrs old and I have been a muslim all my life. I was even born in Saudi Arabia where there was religion all around me. But I still weep from joy when I realize how amazing it is. I was crying few seconds ago!

Few things that got to me was a former christian now a muslim brother saying he was shocked to see how much importance is given to god in Islam. He admires how muslims leave their daily routine to pray 5 times a day. And I started crying. I still want to cry. Why not??? Why shouldn't we put god before everything else. He created us. He gave us life. He gives us food. He gives us family, he gives us air to breath in. He made us into such beautiful functioning people. Praying is the least I can do to thank him. I remember once I was talking to some pig eating moron (nothing againt people who do, it's your business but this moron really pushed my buttons) who said " oh we don't need 5 times a day to pray to god, we can do it any time" Dear idiot! we do salah 5 times a day. We don't need scheduled times to pray to our god. I personally love it when I meet someone muslim I say "salam" It's simple. It's my way of daily life and in the most simplest way I pray for a fellow bro or sis to my Allah. When I eat or do anything I say bismillah again I pray to my Allah. When I see something beautiful I say Mashallah. Again I prayed to my god. When I make plans I say inshallah that will happen. Again I prayed to my god. So anyone who comes to argue with me that another religion shows more love for God than my religion you know you are wrong! How many times have I seen SRK or other stars say Inshallah? They just prayed right there saying yes it will happen if Allah is willing. We remember god in everything we do.

Another lady said she was searching for a religion for quite some time as she was not happy being a catholic. She used the phrase " it was a like a coat that didn't seem to fit" She had questions that couldn't be answered. She was also shocked to find out bible was written 300 years after Jesus' death. And they actually took a vote to decide if jesus was divine or not. So yes obviously she went on a path to search God. She asked a muslim brother tell me about your religion all he said was " It is a beautiful religion, a simple religion, part of life" she was shocked as she always saw religion as something burdensome and a duty. Never the way of life or something beautiful. But that is islam. It's just a simple way of life. It lets you live a good complete life.


Anyways I am really hungry. It's the month of shaban! I already missed precious days I could've used to fast. I will start fasting from tomorrow! So excited. I am already excited about the month of Ramadan. Subhanallah! 30 days of fasting you would expect people to be sad. Seriously a month of no eating, or anything bad yet muslims around the world look forward to this month like no other and they get sad when it's over. My friend Avi always asked me last year why do you fast again. I said " so I can understand what the poor is feeling" He said " ok that makes sense but you don't need to fast whole 30 days to be nicer to poors. you can just do it on your own" I always ended the conversation right there saying " you won't understand as you would have to be a muslim to get it" It's beautiful. This calm feeling washes over you. It feels like all of a sudden your soul has been cleaned. You feel closer to god. You feel closer to yourself. You actually look at all the muslims who are fasting just like someone who is your own. A lot of places promote unity but no one does it like us muslim brothers and sisters. We don't promote brotherhood or sisterhood. We practice it. We are brothers and sisters in the truest sense. We pray together. We really really really pray together. I find it amazing to know when I am praying to god all my other muslim brothers and sisters are praying to the same god exactly like me. When I have starved myself the whole day I know all my other sisters have done just the same and they are loving it as much as I do. In a daily world I swear I have problems against other ethnic groups. I am ashamed to say it but I really do have problem with other ethnic groups. But never in my life have I ever had anything against another muslim brother or sister because of their ethnicity. It's not done on purpose. It's natural. It's not that I choose not to have a problem with them because they are muslim. Not at all! I see no difference between me and another brother or sister. There is no division be he ten times richer than me or poorer. On eids when I go to the mosque I would see the indonasian ladies in their ethnic outfits, then comes the arabs wearing their outfits, then the african woman with their colorful traditional garbs, the indian, pakis, bengalis with their sarees and salwars kameez. Did I paint a picture?? Isn't that beautiful??!!!! It's like the whole world has gotten together to worship one God. They are all part of the beautiful ummah. Everyone is so different from each other! They look different, they talk different and eat different and let me tell you they smell different too! Usually I can tell from smell where they are from! But all these wondeful people just smile at each other say " salam sister (may peace be upon you)" It's a true prayer and a very sincere smile! Because I know fake smiles. I paste a fake smile on my face everytime my mom puts me infront of her friends. But those smiles are truly sincere as I give one myself. I really smile at those strangers with love. Which other religion brings such a diveresed group together? Everyone is respected the same way, treated the same way! They all have the same position! I think all religion promotes good values such as love one another. But how many people actually love a brother or sister in religion. I do! When I sit down next to a complete stranger to pray I truly consider her my sister. And I know she probably does the same!


I will end today's note here. I don't consider my self religious at all. I do many wrong things. But I love my Allah! And nothing will stop me from loving him or appreciating the beautiful religion he gave me that's truly perfect in everyway!!